Tag Archive: support


20091101 - TouchGraph friend graph (pyramid)

20091101 – TouchGraph friend graph (pyramid) (Photo credit: Rev. Xanatos Satanicos Bombasticos (ClintJCL))

Anonymity (you have no idea how much that hurt my brain to remember how to spell that!)

Anonymity, that is why,  I think.

I have had a rough year, and have felt abandonded by my friends, and hurt by some family, (not all but just one is hurtful enough)  so I have turned my trust into my friends I have met through my online blog, and through my work.

These people only the me who is NOW, not the me who is PAST.  I think this is the very reason for the deep trust that is easy to find with them.

I can be completely honest and never feel judged, I can ask for help and get honest opinions.  No one needs to Lie to me because they dont need to.

Its so nice to switch on my gmail, and see a new message from someone, unknown personally, but known virtually,  the message being of total and honest support and pure care and happiness for my wellbeing.  Theres no hidden adgenda, no wanting a favour in return, just a ‘take care and be happy’ from a stranger.

I have concluded, that in affairs of the heart – anonymity can bring you your greatest of friends.

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Writing

Writing (Photo credit: jjpacres)

As part of my  self help therapy of getting my carnaged life back on track,  Ive started writing poetry again.   A publisher I once worked for and who has become a great friend,  has bought me a wonderful gift of a Journal, Notebook, and writing set,  (all part of an amazing writing set) along with a really nice couple of pens.

He went through a traumatic split with his partner of 15 years,  and said writing saved him from Diazepam! Well with that recomendation How could I refuse the suggestion.

Its slow to start with, as its been many years since I wrote from the heart, but hopefully I will find it in myself to do this.

Any advice would be greatfully recieved.

 

Uh Oh

Uh Oh (Photo credit: stromnessdundee)

Just a quick apology to my followers,  Ive had to slow up on my blogging, due to recent events, am temping at the live in care work for a few weeks, so only have a 2 hour break per day, (work the other 22)  which means I dont have a chance to comment on my friends blogs, but I am trying to read them.  I need the time to contemplate to add a constructive comment sometimes without sounding like im an idiot!  Hopefully when I get my self a decent new laptop (a cup of coffee made its home within the workings of my last one!)   then I can sit and read, but for now, we have a communal laptop/computer  which time is limited on.

I will return to full form hopefully soon.  thanks for your patience and all your lovely comments and emails of support to me,  they are appreciated,  it has been an emotional rollercoaster and I have been guilty of immersing myself into work  to get through the day without thinking and so that when the night comes I am completley ready for sleep without ear worms reminding me of my failures.

Thankyou once again for helping me so much

Well, .. I’ve been back in the UK for a bit,  luckily visited a couple of my friends and hijacked their WIFI to trawl my 2367 emails!   I spent a wonderful re-couperation in Naples,  bit nervy being alone, but soon blended into life with the help of some fine wine and pizzas!

Im also back temp at the care job, have worked in Hereford, Cornwall, the Wirral and now in North Wales for 2 weeks.  Although its live in 22 hours a day of care, we do get a lot of free time, so it helps me to carry on working on my Foodie Writing and researching.  Plus they let you use a communal laptop in most places – which helps a great deal. (So long as your remember which version of Windows your on!!!!)

City Lights, France-Italy Border (NASA, Intern...

City Lights, France-Italy Border (NASA, International Space Station Science, 04/28/10) (Photo credit: NASA’s Marshall Space Flight Center)

One of the ladies I have worked for in the past has heard about my predicament, through the grapevine, and is going abroad for a few months  She has asked me to join her as a companion and carer. We will be starting off with a River Cruise, then moving on to visit her family in Italy and then up to others in France and Spain.  So Ive accepted that,  shes a fascinating lady of 79,  so will also be helping her to type up her journals, which she is hoping to pass on to grand daughters and family.  I feel honoured.

Family life for me didnt improve.  Which is why I suppose Ive signed up for many work-away jobs, moving around the country for a week at a time, takes your mind off things.

Thankfully I have  some great friends to help me.  One friend has been great She has allowed me to steal her WIFI and use her Computer when I was stuck!.

I am also thankful to her for introducing me to WordPress, as she had friends who ‘BLOG’, and Ive followed theres, and have been inspired by other people who have overcome similar issues to me.  This in turn has helped me to find ‘virtual’ friends who have also been supportive, and although they are scattered across the world, they know who they are, and I thank them for their continued texts and emails of simple “how are you?” ‘s.

Well this is all I can write for now,  its suprising how quick a 2 hour break can go when your baring your soul.  Im around for a bit more time,  would love some help and advice.  When I get chance and my head and heart are stronger I will explain more about my news that caused me to Flee.

Many thanks to those who have sent kind messages and have kept ‘liking’ me

DeeDee

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